Revision hasn't been too good recently. I'm on the verge of giving up trying to do well in my maths and history, and soley concentrating on English. I hope I do well in English. I really want a good grade.

Well, I'll try my best for the current situation. If that happens to be crap, then so be it.

Work today was a nightmare. I managed to walk to work in just under 35 minutes (a new record!) but as soon as I walked through the door, I felt all my energy drain from me like I was a sieve. I was dragging my feet around until 7.30, when thankfully I was on 1st break and could eat something. It did help. Sue and Vicki at work were looking quite concerned for me. I was just glad I was on the till, because I was drained enough as it was, but being behind a hot counter, lifting food and things would have done it for me. It was all I could do to give people the correct change and so on.

Just before I went out of work, I saw a notice on the wall, asking if anyone wanted to work extra hours during the summer, to go and see either Claire or Tina. So I looked in the managers office, and Tina was there, so I sneaked in, and spoke to her about it, and she got talking to me about "college" and what I was doing, and what I hoped to get, and what I wanted to do. I hope she didn't mind too much when I said to her that I was going to move away to Uni in September. She seemed to be smiling, but one can never tell with managers.

Still, when I got out of work, it was lovely! Still light, slightly cool with a river breeze. I stood there, made a few phonecalls to Dad's house, and waited for my lift. Contemplated walking home, but thought the better of it.

Stephen was bouncing practically this evening, he's dead set on getting a motorbike too. Dad must be thrilled! Both of his children wanting to kill themselves before they even start out on life. I wonder if he knows about 19th September? I don't think Mum knows. Or does she? She's sometimes been a bit funny when I've had a temporary down feeling, saying "I'll lock the gas thing, I don't want you gassing yourself to death".. as if I would!!! Did Gavan tell her? Did Stephen? Was this the thing that made the whole family worried about me last year? I don't know...

I've been teasing Jonathan today.. Heehee.. I do so love teasing him, he seems to like it too! I was teasing him about a recent purchase he hasn't seen properly and he really wants to... I wonder if I should let him just yet? Heehee...

I wonder when I am next going to see him? I wonder when it would be sensible.

Oh. And my cousin Karen has had another baby boy. That's all I managed to make out when I heard the answer message from the top of the stairs. Yesterday apparently, and she sounds well, considering she's just had a baby. Another one. With yet another man. I pity her children. Three kids, three different fathers. Bound to be good at Christmas time!

Things are okay.

Keith and I had a slight run-in yesterday evening, and he said some things I didn't want to hear. But we sorted things out, we're friends, hopefully getting better than what I have been the past few months. I don't think I've really had the time for friends these past few months, I've probably been a bit pre-occupied... with one thing or other, and now it's exams. Gah! I so want them to be over with already! Over over over damnit! Now! I so want it to be a month from now... I'm getting fed up. I know how my brother felt now. :-) Just want to finish with all the exams already! Gah. Nearly over. Less than three weeks, and I'll be free. Hopefully.