Hiya everyone. I don't like my layout anymore. I've been looking at everyone else's changing their's and I think of my boring thing, and it's like.. arghh!! I want something sassy.

Although I'm beginning to think that I'm not going to carry on with this much longer. Maybe I am, but not the soul bearing stuff where I am letting anyone who wants to see my soul. It's hurt me in the past. I haven't done the soul bearing stuff for a while.

I had a thought while I was catching up with diaries. I've thought of something I want to add to my site. I want to add a tribute or something to help people suffering from depression. Maybe not tribute, but... well, a help page. What happened to me, and others I know. Do a little research when it comes to the whole thing. Links to other sites. Gonna keep that thought in mind. Perhaps things that depression leads you to, escapism through various methods. Advice, if I'm the one to do it.

Because at the moment I'm beginning to think that the old diary entries I have on the internet aren't of use to anyone. It gives the reader a sense of helplessness, unless they are suffering also, and while it's all well and good, a sense that you can relate to someone else isn't everything.

Although it did help to read Lolita's diary, as she was depressed at the same time as I was. The only thing I am sad about is that it seems that while I've been better for about half a year now, she is still taking anti-depressants, and so, I guess is still depressed. And my boyfriends, at the time, and now, do not understand the feeling of guilt I had about recovering, because I knew that Lolita was still going through it. It just didn't seem right.

I want to help other people with a more practical side, now that I can't help by letting people relate to me. I might post old diary entries. But I will probably change names. Sorry. I think I'm going to email myself with this. Should remember then.

Right, well, lead a very interesting day so far. Been web browsing, and watching TV, and stuff. Also took photos of myself including new haircut, and also something interesting I found in the kitchen here. :-) *giggle* Oh, as Jonathan's left work now, I think it's safe to let you in on the secret... I found a whole load of tinned peaches in his cupboard, I think from when his grandma next door (who currently has an eyepatch due to a cataract operation that went a little wrong) kept giving him food to take back to Coventry.. and he hasn't touched the peaches. So they've multiplied. :-) He has 25 tins of sliced peaches. I will link the photo when I upload it. :-) All Tesco value, except for one, which is Sainsbury's value. *giggle*

I texted Keith after I had my haircut, and he wants a photo, which is why I took several photos of myself. :-) I might play around with stuff if I get the time, I might make a new layout with my photo in it or something. :-)

*giggle*

I have a little short ponytail. :-) Well, short when comparing it to how it was before. :-) It's cute. I might take photos of that too. :-) Yeah, I know, I'm crazy. Oh!!!!! Talking about photos just reminded me of the really cool photos Jonathan and I took of a hoverfly. I'm going to change my desktop to one of them. They're really closeup, so you can see the hairs on it and everything! Amazing detail. I will also remember to upload them to my website so that Jonathan can save bandwidth when posting the picture to a mailing list. (which will also give my site loads of hits. At the moment, most of the hits I'm getting are from webcrawlers like Googlebots and things. Which should mean that more people will know about my site. :-) Hopefully. It'd be nice to know that people like my site. That's why I also have a guestbook for friggin' sake!!!!! :-) Gonna have to design a titlebar or something which appears on each page. So more people can see I have a friggin' guestbook!! *grin*

Right, am going to sign off now. Bye!