Loss and life

Ahhh. I reckon Mum wants a grandkid. We were talking about babies and stuff today, and then she goes across the road to give a charger back, and comes back with a baby and plonks it in my arms. About three weeks old. This baby was soooo cute! Had a cuddle for about fifteen minutes and then she went to take it back. (she was on good terms with the neighbours obviously for them to trust her with her baby!) Awwww... the broody instincts...

Had a lovely time this weekend with the parents. I do find lately that the time I spend with my parents are much better than when I was there. Dunno why that is. They probably think there's more to life when you don't get to see each other that often.

I gave Caroline a box of Black Magic, one of her favourites. I said as I gave them to her "Happy Mother's Day." and she seemed really surprised that I got her anything. I know it's the first year that I have, but she is like a second mum to me. I've known her for years, and got on so well with her. It's hard not to love her! My mum even gets on well with her, which may be an alien concept for some people... a woman getting on well with her husband's ex-wife! But it certainly does make life easier. When I think of my friend Rachel, whose parents have recently divorced, and mine that divorced five years ago (separated 11 years ago), I definitely prefer that they did it sooner rather than later. The teenage years are hard anyway, so I'm glad it happened then rather than after the teenage years. Well, after all the hormones rushing around.

We went to see Jonathan's parents too, but didn't really see much of them as they were in the garden a lot. When we went up the garden to say bye, she was chatting to one of the neighbours, who must have stopped to chat to me when I stayed round there for a few weeks last summer. She said to me "You've changed a bit, haven't you?" I didn't recognise her that much, and didn't know if she was mistaking me for Naomi, Jonathan's sister, but she wasn't. "You were here last year weren't you? You've slimmed down a lot!" I was wearing my navy coat which makes me look a bit pearshaped, and I was wondering what she saw! Anyway....

On Friday, we went out drinking with John, Andrew and Lou, and we played 21, a drinking game where you get to add rules if you lose etc. It was quite a fun evening. Wish I had more friends here, because we always have to go to Milton Keynes or whereever. I don't really know many people around here, except for work people. But they're all into the party scene I think. I still feel a bit like an outsider compared to some of them, but I am becoming more comfortable with them, and getting on a lot better with LE, which is good. I get on quite well with the mum of one of the girls in my group, especially since she's quite young and I saw her on the way home the other day and stopped to chat.

Saw the twins and Tim today. They're all getting so big! They're seven years old now... I remember when they were babies! Sam and Jenny really are so different, and they are starting to look different from each other too, maybe partly because Sam's got short hair and Jenny's got long hair, I don't know.

Saw Nan this morning. She seemed quite cheerful but at times mentioned things that made me think she was putting on a show. Her partner, Bill, who she's been with years, died the other day. She's lost two men in her life, and then she had mothers day and had to go out for tea with my uncle. I know I knew this man, Bill, and I met him several times, but I never really knew him as a person. Hope she holds up OK.

Anyway, it's bedtime soon, I've felt so knackered this weekend, sleeping in the car and so on. Probably the travelling has something to do with it. Better put the clothes out to dry first, or we'll have mouldy clothes in the washing machine. Goodnight!

written on 30 March 2003 at 10:35 p.m.

7 MAY 2005 14:00 UTC+0000 since the wedding!