Today is day two of half term. I placed a HUGE order with Confetti for lots of wedding related things. It's already been dispatched! I got bubbles, as we're having those instead of confetti, favour bags, (I was going to order the mint imperials as well, but they were out of stock, and that one item would have delayed the entire order, so I thought I could just buy the mint imperials elsewhere) I ordered 10 disposable cameras for the tables. I thought I'd put a camera on each of the five tables for the meal, and then the other five in the evening, so I get a mixture of photographs throughout the entire day. I'm sure my Dad will take loads of photos anyhow, as will other people, I'm sure, but it'd be great to have some that guests have snap-happily taken throughout the day as well.

I also ordered some little gifts for the men in the wedding party too. Little cufflinks that say "groom", "best man", "usher", "father of the bride", "father of the groom" on them. They're cute. It was an impulse buy, but I think they'll be appreciated.

Tomorrow we're going into town to give notice for our wedding. It's costing us £60 to do that, as well as having to dig out our passports and our birth certificates and such.

Oooh, talking of passports, I'm not sure I've said in here, but Jonathan and I have booked our honeymoon for 10 days in sunny Cyprus! I'm so excited about it, it'll be the first time I've been anywhere by plane, and the first "tropical" place I've been to!

And talking of birth certificates, since the arrival of little Arthur, and the recent birth of a colleague's baby (well, she's on maternity leave, and we don't know when or if she'll be back), I've become extremely broody (again). I want a baby so much, but I'm so scared that I'll be an awful mother, that I won't be able to cope with a baby and all the other things a woman these days is supposed to cope with. I sometimes feel I can't even cope with my life right now, planning for a wedding, my job and my qualification. I just keep plodding along, hoping that it'll all work out.

Little by little, the wedding is coming along, but it's so much to plan, and there's so little time now. May is coming along so fast, it frightens me. I'm 21, a grown woman now, but I still feel like a little kid, in a grown up's world. Thank god I've got my Mum. She's been amazing throughout the last year, helping me with the wedding. She's sorted out the dress, she came bridesmaid dress shopping with me, she's sorting my cake, my flowers, my transport, my jewellry, my hair and my makeup. I'm incredibly lucky to have her. I wish I lived closer to her, I really do. Maybe sometime, in the future...
Anyway... yesterday being Valentine's Day and all.. my last as an officially "single" woman, although I've stopped calling myself single since I started going out with Jonathan, and even more so since we got engaged. Still, yesterday was a good day. I spent most of the afternoon making a card for Jonathan. When Jonathan got home, he'd got me a bunch of red roses and carnations, with a little teddy in there as well, (on a pole!). He'd also bought a cook at home indian "take-away", some posh roses chocolates for me, and he also came in bearing a big bag of doritos and dips "for us to eat while watching a romantic film" he said. I was overwhelmed. It was so sweet. We cooked the indian food, and dished it up... Boy, it was a lot! Both Jonathan and I were full up after the meal, and didn't even want the Doritos, so we just watched some more Friends and for some reason, I felt really sleepy then, and fell asleep on the couch, while Jonathan played some of his 'Prince of Persia 2' game on the Xbox.

Yesterday morning, I was expecting a delivery from NEXT, some shoes I ordered, hopefully one of them being the shoes I was going to wear for my wedding. I didn't know what time they were coming, and I desperately needed a shower, so I thought "sod it", jumped in the shower anyway. I thought I saw a red car or van pulling up outside as I'd finished, and hurriedly pulled on my dressing gown, and waited for the doorbell to go, but it didn't. Anyhow, eventually they came, all the shoes fit, and I do indeed have my wedding shoes! Well, wedding sandals. I'm hoping the weather should be nice, being May and all, but even if it's a bit cold, my dress should be long enough to cover my feet anyway. I'm getting SOOO excited about my wedding dress. I'm trying not to be, and I sooo want to have my fitting soon, but Linda, the lady who's making my dress lost her mum the other week, so things must be quite difficult for her lately. She seems like a very strong woman though, so I'm sure she'll be fine.

There's a lot more that needs to be thought about, including menus and things like that, but it'll have to wait til another day. Just wanted to let you know what's new in Wedding land. ;-)