I have to get my general studies stuff today. I'm getting kind of worried about it, so I really hope that Liz won't let me down. I sent her a text asking her if she was in school today, because I'd like to get the stuff today.. but as of yet she hasn't replied. It's only been about fifteen minutes anyhow.

I have to phone the police today as well to give them the information I got on Thursday night. Ho hum...

I saw one of the girls in my form on Saturday night. I bet the gossip will be once again flying like crazy. Oooh, Nicola's not been in since Monday last week, and there she was, looking perfectly healthy, going into the Exchange Bar with a tall bloke.

Jonathan met my dad yesterday. He quite liked him (He being Jonathan, and him being my dad), although he was a bit fazed by my dad's outright farting..

Last night, when I was speaking to Jonathan, who had gone back to his parents house, we started talking about our progression. Physically and emotionally. And if everything was okay with it. I told him my fears and apprehensions, and he seemed to be able to tell me exactly what I needed to know. I guess past experience has made me cynical in my own beliefs and how far I can trust myself... it sounds odd, but I sometimes can't trust myself at all, and I think that this thing with Dave was the initial reason...

I spoke to him briefly online last night. I haven't met him since January. Oh, and guess what we did January? Still, it's over... It's all over.

If Jonathan can be strong for the two of us incase I become weak, that would be brilliant. I will try and trust him.

I think I will go into school today. And take with me all the essays I've done. Well, just got a reply from Liz, she'll be in for about lunchtime, so I will be as well. And take with my my English work and my history essay. I think I'll try and squeeze in another English essay too. So far, I've done an essay for Dubliners, Jane Gardam, Murmuring Judges, and one I gave to Barry V a while ago on King Lear. I think I'll do one on Chaucer. And maybe try and do the last one on Seamus as well. And maybe then I'll have five essays to give in. What a brilliant feat that would be! It would prove I've been doing work and not just sitting around online, or watching the telly.

I think I'm getting the hang of English essays. I seem to be able to write so much more than I could. I guess we'll see when it comes to getting the essays back... Hopefully I can get them back when I come in on Wednesday for the exam.

Hmm.. I had a dream last night. It was odd, and kind of vague. But in part of it, I was in the computer room at school, using someone else's login (because of course, mine's been disabled) and Mr Wells was in the room, and I tried to make myself disguised, by laying my head on the table so he wouldn't know it was me. In the end, I closed all my windows while he was watching me, and tried to logoff as quickly and inconspicuously as I could. I'm not entirely sure it worked!! Couldn't remember much else, unfortunately.

I guess the whole thing with school is still worrying me slightly. It should be okay today... I'm not going in for long. I'm bound to get some agro, but hopefully not much, and I can cling to Dr Akehurst if necessary. I think I might try and get the rest of my books from my locker, if it hasn't been graffitied and all the books damaged or something. I'm glad I took out the things that had my name and address on them. That could have been scary.

Anyway, time to get dressed and do another essay before I go in...

Jonathan left his microphone here.. but as we're going to see each other this weekend again (Yay), as we're going to a BBQ in Oxford, it should be really cool. Got Saturday off, but I'm not sure if I can get Sunday off. Let's hope there's seven in, so I can say that without me, there is six of us in. So can I take it off as a lieu day? And I can stay in Coventry for longer!! Woohooo! Well, we'll see. I bet there's only six of us in so far. But I might be able to persuade Nicky that five can do it. 2 in the kitchen and 3 out the front? Hmm.. maybe..

Or maybe not.

We'll see. Ho hum....

Anyway, wish me luck.. gonna face school this afternoon, I think I'll need it. :-/